Time is going by too fast

It's been over 2 months since I posted anything here. Part of it is because I just have been feeling busy being a mom, wife, and pharmacist and it is partly because I haven't really been sure what to write. So this will be a very random post.

The last few weeks have been more trying for me for some reason. I'm not sure if it's my attitude/perception about things or if things around me are truly changing. Lucas has always been a sneaky little boy, who gets into things when he knows he should not. It just seems to be worse lately for some reason. His listening skills have diminished and I'm not really sure if the time outs are working that well. He is still an incredible sweet boy and I feel like when we are really active, he is great. Unfortunately, the weather in Washington usually does not want to cooperate with me, so it's hard to be outside alot. Lucas has been loving all the yard work we have been doing, especially any digging. He seems to also enjoy the bike rides on my bike, so that is nice. I just hate threatening "we can't do ___, if Lucas is not a good boy", or something like that. Parenting is hard and it's even harder because I feel like my hubby is sometimes a little harsh with our son. I do work part time, so I can't be with Lucas all the time and I just want to make sure the two of us are on the same page, yet I don't want to step on his toes.

Lucas is going to be two in less than 2 weeks. What the heck... everyone tells you to enjoy the baby moments cause it goes by so fast and it really has. It's amazing how vocal Lucas is and so strong willed. I do want to try for a second child soon and hopefully it works out quickly for us.

My favorite moments with Lucas are just being with him, holding him in my lap and watching him sleep. They really do look like little angels then.

My first time leaving Lucas

For the first time since he was born, I left Lucas. My hubby, Mark, has left him before for a few days, but I am pretty obsessed with my kid. I miss him after not seeing him for a couple hours if I know he is awake. Mark always asks me why I watch videos of Lucas - don't I get enough of him when I'm awake. I just think he is a cutie and it is fun to see him whenever I can.

So of course I was hesitant to drop my little guy off and just leave. I knew that he would be fine and happy but I was going to really miss my baby. He stayed with Mark's parents who have taken care of him quite a bit and I have to say, he is really easy right now with bed. He's a little more testing about what he wants but like other kids, I know he is the worst with us, his parents. They were great about using his cloth diapers and sticking with his usual sleep schedule.

We dropped Lucas off around noon but we didn't actually leave until about 1 pm after lunch. Of course Lucas didn't really care when we left. Then, off we were to Whistler to ski for the first time since I was pregnant with Lucas. That night was the worst because I just missed him and we'd see little kids all over the place. The next day we were skiing all day so I was pretty busy with that and I was exhausted. We even went to the movie theater together which is VERY rare for us. Our trip was only for 2 nights and of course we had to check out early so we had breakfast around 10am and then left the village since it was so cold out and we weren't skiing that day. On our way home, we got stuck in traffic and it really irritated me cause I wanted to get to Mark's parents house before Lucas went down for nap, but no... that didn't happen :( I just wanted to see my kiddo but I didn't want to check in on him while he was napping. It was nice to be back at home and have everything back to normal. Thankfully we had a day off from work for us to recover and unpack and clean.

Now I feel like I am dealing with alot more of the toddlerhood issues. Especially tantrums, throwing, and crying.. but that's for another post. Lucas is still a great kid, very loving, and I love how he sings. It's really amazing what little sponges kids are when they are growing. And now he talks non stop. I just have to try to figure out or know what he's saying cause of course he gets mad if I don't understand him :)

Missing my baby

I really can't believe my son is already 20 months old. It kind of makes me sad seeing old videos of him as a little, immobile baby. Now here he is in his toddler-hood having tantrums, being stubborn, and getting into EVERYTHING. He is such a typical boy but at the same time, it is so cute seeing him puff his face with my make-up brush or put a necklace on.

Thankfully, we've always had snuggle time, even after I stopped nursing at a little after 4 months. We always sit together and read books before naptime and bedtime and in the mornings or after waking up, sometimes Lucas needs a little time to wake up so we get to snuggle up then too. He doesn't know how to say sorry, so he always gives hugs whenever he feels bad or is sorry.

My two biggest frustrations at this point are his pacifier and the fact that he STILL chews on everything. He also tends to pick up food and eat it off the ground, but I think that's mainly just cause he is a hungry boy. He has gotten most of his teeth already so I'm not really sure why he feels the need to still chew on things. And of course I was bad and should have taken away his pacifier at 15 months when he didn't care but now he asks for it quite often. I do try to just use it at sleep times but that doesn't always pan out.

I can definitely see how mom's get an itching for a new baby once their child starts growing up. Lucas wants to be independent, even though he can't be yet. I'm sure he thinks he can do whatever he wants :) He is a wonderful little boy though and I can't help but be in awe of him and feel so blessed to have his in my life.